Yes I made it to 21!!!!

HAPPY 21st  BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!! :))

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Wow! I'm so glad that I'm still up and living! Life has not been really easy for me.. But it's so great still! I could not complain! There had been so many trials and challenges that sometimes, I had come to the point of deciding to give up which I am so grateful that I did not do! Oh Gosh! I could not be lame! Life is so beautiful and I must not complain, make the most of what I have and go on no matter what!  So Yes!!! I'm 21 babe!!!! And so to celebrate my 21st, I spent it with the Orphans of the Asilo De Milagrosa. The Kids in the Orphanage is so beautiful that i want to adapt em all!!!!! Haha! I swear! It was the best Birthday Party that I ever had! Hugging the children, playing with them, reaching out and listening to their dreams had made me feel so grateful to God that I AM ALIVE!!! Babe, I'm 21! And theres gonna be more to life!!!  Take a look at the memories captured!

The FOOD! Ü

Some Birthday Greetings that touch my heart so much! :)

YOUR AMAZING! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! - Logan Knapus

A beautiful person is one who has done so much to make a big difference in other people's life with little that she has. You are an ambassador to Heavenly Father Divyne! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Keep at it! - Ate Len

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!! So sad, you are not coming here! I don't want to greet you through tx. I have some something for you unta. Well I was hoping to see you in person. Your not just a friend. YOUR MY FREAKING HOT AWESOME BEST FRIEND!!! A text greeting is not enough.. Thanks girl ha.. I love you.. - Dean

Happy 21st Birthday, Divyne! May you have more blessings to come and all the wonderful things in life you deserve. Your such a courageous and strong person... Your kind acts and thoughtful purpose is an inspiration to everyone, especially me. Even though I couldn't make it, I'll send out to the universe my thoughts and wishes for your happiness for this special day... Happy Birthday & God Bless You! - Voltaire Krayzietothabone Buenviaje

 Happy Birthday Divyne. You are a beautiful person and a great blessing to all. It's not just your celebration but a celebration to all people who are blessed because you just exist! Enjoy your day!!! - Xtine Jayme

Hello, Ate Divyne! Happy Birthday! I want to tell you that I love how you decided to spend your birthday today. Ever since, I know you have been sharing all your blessings and happiness in life to others. You always put a smile on your face and face life optimistically. I love that part about you. At a young age, you were already working to provide for your family. Before, I sometimes notice how tired you were but you always remained strong despite that. I know you have inspired a lot of people before and will still be inspiring more in the future. Continue doing good things and I wish you all the best in life! I love you and take care. - Pariszia Albania

YOU ARE TOTALLY AWESOME! HAPPY BIRTHHHDDDAAAYYYYY!!! -KC

I am so proud of you doing this. You are blessed and be blessed the more, I know it in my heart. Heavenly Father Loves and I love you. I hope that you had a good celebration with the kids at Asilo. You have such a kind heart and your so easy to love. Stay that way...I Love you Dear Dyvine. Happy 21 Years of your life! - Len

That is so sweet,and thoughtful of you birthday celebrant! Happy Birthday in advance! Love you!  - Ate Jen

This is the 2nd birthday invitation that i regret i'll miss :'| I love you ate Divyne! Happy birthday! :) - Cun Vicedo

hi divyne! happy birthday! I really love to come but I cannot. Hope your birthday will turn out great! I know Heavenly Father will bless you because of your good and loving heart! Ingats lagi! :) - Ishe

Just an update! (:

Partying with the CEO Mark Shapiro!

Waaa! Time flies fast! I couldn't believe that I'll be turning 21 in three days! It's now October and where did September go???! A lot has happened and I couldn't tell it all right now.. but to some it up, some have come, and some have left.. September has been great and sad.. It has also been the most heart breaking month for me because Sister Byrd leaves on the 29Th.. (I'll tell you more about her later).. She is wonderful.. Well, inspite of being sad, I had to force myself to go out and enjoy life more.. So I went to my company's chill out party and it was so amazing! I didn't know it be that fun!!!! I guess it's great because I have the best office mates ever as I suppose. It We had a night of dancing, singing and playing around.. Weve got to chill out and play some pools..  My boss is amazing and he said I am Freaking Phenomenal. Anyway, I'll tell you more in the coming days.. for now I got to go but let me post some pictures so that you'll know how we party that night.. (Looking at the pictures makes me thik that I am strong.. because even though I project a Smile of a Beauty Queen as my office mates said.. no one knows that I'm really dying inside.. Anyway.. I can't be sad.. so.. take a peek!  love you always - divyne! :)     
       

A picture with the big names that I know of in my company.. They love me! haha! :))

Meet my favorite people in the office. My Gay best friends <3

       Rockin it out with Claud! :>

So much pain for someone so young..

 I truly respect the people who stay strong even if they have every right to break down. I have very high respect for them because I know how painful it is to hold it all in the inside while it is all coming apart at the seams. It is the emotional battle that you have on the inside, the confusion, and the testing of how far your spirit will go that makes it tougher when you began to question if things are really worth doing and sacrificing. I believe now that if you truly wanted to be successful in an endeavor that you choose, you must cultivate the right attitude to obey the correct principles. And for you to obey the correct principles, you must have an insurmountable amount of self control, patience, due diligence, perseverance, sacrifice and optimism to keep going when the going gets tough nor good. As I started my journey to become my best potential I have met so many challenges that I thought would never last.. But in every time that I'm on these very tough situation I always talk to myself to hold on a little longer, to analyze, to never give up, to learn from it, and to  hold on to the fact that nothing is permanent. Things might get better or worst, but nothing is surely permanent... Even the best shows has to end. That's life. Life as I know it. 

As of the present situation I still had three jobs. I work as marketing manager on the afternoon, a call center agent at night, and runs a little pack lunch business in the evening. All of this three jobs sounds so good in the ear but honestly, I can't tell if it's killing me or making me stronger.Scrambling and playing my role in each part requires a lot of maturity and patience to make things happen. But still, I don't have complain. Even though sometimes, I might have a feeling of the need to get away from this place, to run and never look back, I still choose to hold on because I still believe that I AM VERY VERY BLESSED indeed. This is the path that i chose to discover my individuality and to reach my best potential. I will continue to plant seeds that will benefit others as it grows.. I will grow stronger from the pain.. and I will continue fight, conquer, and thrive. I'll never forget my very purpose in life, I came to win.. to survive, to prosper and to rise. ♥

So as I end my journal for today let me share the sweet little experience that happened earlier.. This sweet disposition was disposed as I went to my office mate's cubicle Andie.  He then told me sincerely with a smile and said.. "You know what Divyne, I always want to see you every morning.. because your spirit is just so positive and you radiate a very strong feeling of gratefulness in life even though we all know that your life must be very very hard on your age." That made my day! He is just so sweet and that just really uplift me! It made me smile. :) My manager David, also gave me a tight hug.. It was very refreshing and encouraging. He is just so sweet and warm.. I love my job. I love my life.. I love my family and I love my friends.. and even though I may love a man that I could never have,  mess up. a lot and lost things fast, that's okay.. nobody's perfect. There are no mistakes.. just chances we've taken.. I have learned. And I am growing everyday with the wisdom to live a happy and purposeful life. And even though I'm so broke inside and you don't see my pain, it doesn't mean it's not there. The pain is still there, but who cares? I'm a Sojourner! It's all water going under the bridge. And even though there so much pain for someone so young like me, I'll hide it all with a smile, stand tall, and wear those pumps! And Oh, Babe, don't get me wrong.. I'm tough. And so finally my ride is here! Got to go! bye bye loves! We may have not meet but thanks for getting a peek of my life as of the moment. I hope you feel my love and learn from my experiences.. love love love you, Divyne :*

A draft of my week! Ü

Look at my Shecdule! Didn't realized that I have not been sleeping during Mondays! :'(
And Oh, I just found out that the longest sleep I could have is 5 hours daily :|
All of the blue related colors are the hours that I spent working. Turned out to be working 113 hours a week!

Did you see any sleep sign on a Monday? This has to change!

the diary of a sojourner

These times are really tough.. So tough that I'd want to be insensitive just to feel no pain.. But I know that pain is good and It plays a very important part of the process. I also know that pain makes me strong and exercised. It's just the pressure of meeting all these deadlines, doing things immediately and paying all the debts is just so nerve wracking.. Nerve wracking in the sense of finding ways on how to meet the demands.. Sometimes I would want to cry because of confusion, exhaustion, and sleep deprivation.. but then, remembering that I am a "Sojourner" makes it a little lighter realizing that all these things that are happening right now is only water under the bridge.. which means.. All things will pass.. All will pass.. So don't give up! Believe that good days are coming! Because they will.. SO PUT YOUR HOPES HIGH AND KEEP MOVING DIVYNE!!! :D

And so today, I only had three hours of sleep.. again.. I slept at 7am, woke up at 10am.. I don't know but I feel that time flies so fast as I've been working for the pack lunched business. I started slicing the meats to keep everything ready in the cooking time.. Oh boy.. My hands are all cuts now :(  I've been slicing and marinating the meats for 4 hours.. Quiet a while for slicing huh?.. After that, cleaned the kitchen, wash the pack lunches, took a shower and then went to the grocery to purchase the things I needed for the FISH FLLET!!! Dressed quickly to go to Parkmall. As I went to Parkmall I was hoping to purchase the good that I need, only to find out that they are not fit for my budget... so sad :( which made me realized to go to another place.. And so, I discovered something new! SM HYPERMARKET!!! Its located somewhere in the reclamation area I guess.. haha.. anyway, I love it! Its so big and beautiful that I'd want to tour around and check all  things out!!! And also, I can buy most ingredients at the very cheap price! What a wow!!! I finish buying goods at close to 7pm which gives me and hour and half to cook food.. By the way, my cook is still in the province so I'm doing all the work now.. I'm glad that I have two very good assistant!!! Nanay Bellen and Robert!!! They are very understanding and I they really work to do their best!!! And yep! Because of all the help that I could get, I finish cooking on time. My heart was jumping like! Yeiii!!! Humana gyud! Isn't it great?

It was raining so hard on my way to work and there is no way of transportation in our area but a motorcycle.. By the way, our house is quiet far, it's by the mountains actually.. so there's not much transportation but a single motorcycle.. As I was riding the motorcycle, the rain pour down a little harder.. and to think, Im on the motorcycle and had to carry 20 kilos of pack lunches + being super soak and drenched in water.. I feel so cold and I was shivering.. Oh gosh.. I wanted to cry again because it's just so hard oi.. But then, I had to remind myself that I have to be strong.. Theirs nobody that could help me in this but myself.. I just really need to do this things even if I don't want to.. just to be at a place where I want to be in the nearest future.. I know that things will get better.. might not be right now.. but it will..  So here I am! Working still, Selling out all the pack lunches, planning, coordinating dreaming and working my best  to be at the spot where I'd want to be! Despite of all the challenges and problems, I still feel so blessed. I am so bless indeed.. very blessed that I have nothing to say but thank you to my dearest Heavenly Father.. He really listens.. I can really feel that he is there.. and It feels really good to know that he truly loves me you know? He is just so amazing! Okay go.. got a lot of things to do! I know! Things will get better! They will! I know that! But still, I prefer it to be awesome!

PS. I am so dying to be at a place where I can be breathe and just stopped!!! Somewhere in BOGO, BOHOL, MOALBOAL or at the nearest beach where there is not much people.. Can someone take me there? to the beach? to the nature or whatever?
I don't care.. but please.. please.. weekend be good to me!!

love ya! - divyne!