These times are really tough.. So tough that I'd want to be insensitive just to feel no pain.. But I know that pain is good and It plays a very important part of the process. I also know that pain makes me strong and exercised. It's just the pressure of meeting all these deadlines, doing things immediately and paying all the debts is just so nerve wracking.. Nerve wracking in the sense of finding ways on how to meet the demands.. Sometimes I would want to cry because of confusion, exhaustion, and sleep deprivation.. but then, remembering that I am a "Sojourner" makes it a little lighter realizing that all these things that are happening right now is only water under the bridge.. which means.. All things will pass.. All will pass.. So don't give up! Believe that good days are coming! Because they will.. SO PUT YOUR HOPES HIGH AND KEEP MOVING DIVYNE!!! :D
And so today, I only had three hours of sleep.. again.. I slept at 7am, woke up at 10am.. I don't know but I feel that time flies so fast as I've been working for the pack lunched business. I started slicing the meats to keep everything ready in the cooking time.. Oh boy.. My hands are all cuts now :( I've been slicing and marinating the meats for 4 hours.. Quiet a while for slicing huh?.. After that, cleaned the kitchen, wash the pack lunches, took a shower and then went to the grocery to purchase the things I needed for the FISH FLLET!!! Dressed quickly to go to Parkmall. As I went to Parkmall I was hoping to purchase the good that I need, only to find out that they are not fit for my budget... so sad :( which made me realized to go to another place.. And so, I discovered something new! SM HYPERMARKET!!! Its located somewhere in the reclamation area I guess.. haha.. anyway, I love it! Its so big and beautiful that I'd want to tour around and check all things out!!! And also, I can buy most ingredients at the very cheap price! What a wow!!! I finish buying goods at close to 7pm which gives me and hour and half to cook food.. By the way, my cook is still in the province so I'm doing all the work now.. I'm glad that I have two very good assistant!!! Nanay Bellen and Robert!!! They are very understanding and I they really work to do their best!!! And yep! Because of all the help that I could get, I finish cooking on time. My heart was jumping like! Yeiii!!! Humana gyud! Isn't it great?
It was raining so hard on my way to work and there is no way of transportation in our area but a motorcycle.. By the way, our house is quiet far, it's by the mountains actually.. so there's not much transportation but a single motorcycle.. As I was riding the motorcycle, the rain pour down a little harder.. and to think, Im on the motorcycle and had to carry 20 kilos of pack lunches + being super soak and drenched in water.. I feel so cold and I was shivering.. Oh gosh.. I wanted to cry again because it's just so hard oi.. But then, I had to remind myself that I have to be strong.. Theirs nobody that could help me in this but myself.. I just really need to do this things even if I don't want to.. just to be at a place where I want to be in the nearest future.. I know that things will get better.. might not be right now.. but it will.. So here I am! Working still, Selling out all the pack lunches, planning, coordinating dreaming and working my best to be at the spot where I'd want to be! Despite of all the challenges and problems, I still feel so blessed. I am so bless indeed.. very blessed that I have nothing to say but thank you to my dearest Heavenly Father.. He really listens.. I can really feel that he is there.. and It feels really good to know that he truly loves me you know? He is just so amazing! Okay go.. got a lot of things to do! I know! Things will get better! They will! I know that! But still, I prefer it to be awesome!
PS. I am so dying to be at a place where I can be breathe and just stopped!!! Somewhere in BOGO, BOHOL, MOALBOAL or at the nearest beach where there is not much people.. Can someone take me there? to the beach? to the nature or whatever?
I don't care.. but please.. please.. weekend be good to me!!
I don't care.. but please.. please.. weekend be good to me!!
love ya! - divyne!
